The List

Jeremiah 32:19
19 great are your purposes and mighty are your deeds. Your eyes are open to the ways of all mankind; you reward each person according to their conduct and as their deeds deserve.

It's three days before Christmas and the children are all wondering what Santa left for them. Will it be a Xbox or a lump of coal? Unfortunately, most of these children will be getting whatever they asked for no matter if they were naughty or nice. Many Christians believe that God plays Santa and gives them things no matter how they live or act. While the wicked do prosper on earth many of us fail to see that our real treasures are stored up in Heaven. God's list is a lot more serious than Santa's.
So what will you be getting for Christmas? Will you be on God's naughty list or God's nice list? Maybe you are hoping for that new big screen HD television that you have been drooling over this last year. Well, although a big screen television is a great thing it is not something your soul or eternity in heaven will benefit from. The bible says "what good does it do a man to gain the whole world and loose his soul". Why are we so caught up with who is getting what? So much we are blinded to see what God has told us to do through His son. Jesus didn't come into the world looking for earthly riches. Jesus would have been top on Santa's nice list but did he get all the things his flesh desired? Jesus told us to look out for the widows and the orphans. Are we doing all that God wants us to do or are we just seeking the rewards the world has to offer "us". Think about it this year would you rather be on Santa's list or God's?

Revelation 20:15
If anyone's name was not found written in the book of life, he was thrown into the lake of fire.

Walking into Walls

Isaiah 59:9-10
Therefore justice is far from us,
Nor does righteousness overtake us;
We look for light, but there is darkness!
For brightness, but we walk in blackness!
10 We grope for the wall like the blind,
And we grope as if we had no eyes;
We stumble at noonday as at twilight;
We are as dead men in desolate places.

You ever feel left in the dark? Perhaps you've been searching for God to show you which door to go through yet you can't seem to find the handle in this dark world we live in? You aren't alone. I can't either but we have to keep believing that God is there through the darkness. We can not be consumed by the darkness we are living in today or we will just become blind like everyone else and start walking into walls. God will direct our steps when we walk in His light. However, sometimes it may be in the full light of noon that we ignore His voice and go another path. Soon we stumble and wonder what happened. God does want to keep us from stumbling but we must chose Him. We should not be living like dead men in desolate places. It is hard especially with the pressures of society but we can do it. Allow God to move you today. Listen to His word in your life and follow His instructions.
God "will" put walls in our way so we wont be able to move through doors without doing what He wants us to do first. In Isaiah 59 God told the people He would "redeem" them but they had to get out of their sins... the people still chose to walk in darkness. Are we choosing to listen to God today or will we just keep walking into walls?


Isaiah 59:8
8 The way of peace they have not known,
And there is no justice in their ways;
They have made themselves crooked paths;
Whoever takes that way shall not know peace.

Deep Sea Diving

Jeremiah 31:34b “...for I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more.”

Sometimes when I get very low I picture myself drowning in the ocean. I stare at the surface of the water and it is glistening and I see light but the further I sink the darker it gets and the colder I become. Last Saturday I was listening to Audio Adrenaline "Ocean Floor". It said "your sins are forgotten they're on the bottom of the ocean floor". Just then someone told me about how God casts our sins into the sea of forgiveness with no fishing signs... sometimes we go fishing... other times "other" people will go fishing there.
Have you ever had people shove your mistakes in your face? Have people brought up things that God already forgave you for? One of my biggest issues with people is when they go off with emotions then bring up every offense they've ever had toward me no matter how small it was. I do it too. The other day I was working out with my best friend and we were talking about something with her church then she said some words that brought up how angry I was toward a remember of her church who used to go there (and left). That was "years" ago and I was still letting it get to me... I realized I need to let go of that. One time I had an idea of writing down all my fears and issues on rocks and throwing them in the ocean.
Last week when I was subbing a girl was telling me how this other girl offended her on October 8th. I told that girl it was very unhealthy for her to hold onto that for so long and she has to get over it and forgive the girl because it's destroying her joy. Sometimes the ocean is the best place to cast these things because the ocean is so deep that there are parts that haven't been discovered yet. If we go snorkeling near the surface we feel free and can swim and enjoy ourselves. If we deep sea dive we need to be able to carry the burdens necessary to even just survive in that environment. I don't know about you but I don't want extra burdens.
When I was younger I watched a lot of Nova movies about deep sea diving. The fish that always stuck around the surface were the most beautiful fish the deeper you went into the ocean the more scary the fish looked. I don't know about you but I want to stay near the light and not go into the darkness. Come out of the deep sea and into the light. Do not go near your sins... rise above the surface look toward the sunrise move on and realize God's mercy is new every morning.

2 Timothy 2:22
22 Run from anything that stimulates youthful lusts. Instead, pursue righteous living, faithfulness, love, and peace. Enjoy the companionship of those who call on the Lord with pure hearts.

Righteous Rasberries

Mark 16:17 “And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name they shall cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues”

It all started at Beacon House Church when I was seven years old. This lady ran up and down the isles rambling on and on in tongues saying my dad was an evil man and needed to repent and come back to the Lord. Even when I was seven years old I knew in me that something was not right. I did not like this lady saying these things and saying they were from God. I did not like what she said about my dad. My dad had issues but God was dealing with those issues and praise Him now those issues are no longer an issue at all. The real problem was this woman was using a spiritual gift to destroy another person. I was seven and this was my first serious glimpse at spiritual warfare... I was confused, baffled, and disturbed all at the same time. I didn't understand the gift of speaking in tongues and I certainly didn't understand people being slain in the Spirit. So I started going to my aunt's baptist church where I was very comfortably involved in youth activities and had no fear of anyone being slain in the Spirit of rambling off in tongues. Instead I was just fed with the word of God so much that I was able to win awards for bible scripture memorization.
At the time my mom and dad really couldn't understand why I would not want to go to their own church but they were still happy I was learning the word of God. My mom worked diligently to help me memorize the scriptures and would quiz me and help me find ways I was able to use to help me to remember them. My dad also quizzed me and sang songs to me to help me try to remember some of them. It wasn't until later in life that I realized not even the baptist church was perfect. Soon I grew weary of the legalism they were instilling on their congregation. I thirst for more than just the word but seeing the word lived through lifestyle and not just meaning that we only could wear skirts and coo-lots. I meant I wanted a DEEEEP understanding of God. I wanted to know what it was like living my "all" for Him.
I searched years to find a church home where I was able to develop that intimacy with God. I wandered through several churches where I had a deep feeling that people were just "fake" like they were acting spiritually within the church and then returning home to their lives and doing things that were completely nonspiritual. They didn't realize how disturbing it was to me to see that when I HUNGERED!for the truth. Even my "now" fiance could tell you that the truth was not being taught the way it should have. However God brought me to an understanding in the midst of those churches that I needed to have a relationship with Him outside of church that would help me discern things. It all happened because of my grandma in North Carolina. My grandma was a fan of Benny Hinn who to me didn't seem like he was "all that". She also liked to read books and had a huge collection of the Left Behind Series and Frank Perretti books. I loved her books I would drool over them anytime I was around them. My grandma knew how much I loved her books so she shipped them to me one day not to long ago. When I opened up the cigarette smoke filled pages of Frank Peretti's "This Present Darkness" my eyes were wide opened... not only because I was reading but my eyes were also opened spiritually. This was the time I understood what spiritual warfare was this was the time where I was ready to do battle with Satan. This was the time I laid in my bed with my tongue sticking out asking for God to allow any gift of the spirit He wanted in my life to be put into my life. And so it was! I went to one of those churches I mentioned before... and although things weren't right I was so it didn't matter... God used me! He used me to pray over people and He showed me things in their lives to pray about. Many people didn't realize that when I was younger I started seeing demons... I didn't realize what I was seeing until I read my grandma's books. I didn't realize how much power God gives us to battle Satan. It is a battlefield out there! God gives us the ability to speak to Him in "code" so that He can help us fight off the enemy. That is what speaking in tongues is really about not casting down people but casting down the work of the enemy in peoples lives. I am 27 now and twenty years have gotten me to this point. When I was seven at that church where I learned God's word I gave my heart to Christ. Since then I've been hungry... it is great to finally be satisfied in the Holy Spirit.

John 6:35,51
"And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst…. I am the living bread which came down from heaven: if any man eat of this bread, he shall live for ever: and the bread that I will give is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."

Share the Blood

Romans 3:13-18
13 “Their talk is foul, like the stench from an open grave.
Their tongues are filled with lies.”
“Snake venom drips from their lips.”
14 “Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness.”
15 “They rush to commit murder.
16 Destruction and misery always follow them.
17 They don’t know where to find peace.”
18 “They have no fear of God at all.”

I was reading my bible and praying today about the situation I've dealt with this past week. I was crying out to God because I wanted to stay in this job and make an impact in my boss' life. My whole family, my friends, and Johnny's family were all praying for her especially to come to salvation. It's very hard to not feel bitterness when someone shows bitterness toward you for no reason. One thing my dad used to pray on my way to work every morning was "We have 'all' sinned and fallen short of the glory of God". I feel as Christians sometimes we are quick to think we have it all under control and there are no problems that need fixing... instead we try to fix everyone else.
Tonight as I was praying about the bitterness "in my life" and releasing it to God... He showed me this scripture in Romans chapter 3. A scripture I memorized when I was 7 years old was "For we all have fallen short of the glory of God there is no one righteous no not one". I prayed God to forgive me for the bitterness I had for my boss and for other people who have hurt me. When He showed me this scripture I thought woah this describes exactly what I was dealing with all these months and praying over every morning before work. Just then my eyes slide down the scriptures... and realized that it said... and Christ died for them. It didn't just say... Christ died it said He poured out His blood. The person I was bitter toward who wont except God and hates me because I have God in my life is bitter... but God forgave her and He died for her also on that cross. So tonight I'm releasing bitterness toward her and holding her to the cross to be drenched in His blood... crying out thank You Lord and praying for Him to forgive me for not seeing that THIS ONE He gave His blood for also.

So tonight I'm holding her up for Your blood to pour out onto her Lord that she would receive Grace... I'm trading this bitterness in for Grace heal my heart bind my wounds help me to pray for her daily. In Jesus name Amen!

continuing on in Romans 3
25 For God presented Jesus as the sacrifice for sin. People are made right with God when they believe that Jesus sacrificed his life, shedding his blood. This sacrifice shows that God was being fair when he held back and did not punish those who sinned in times past, 26 for he was looking ahead and including them in what he would do in this present time. God did this to demonstrate his righteousness, for he himself is fair and just, and he declares sinners to be right in his sight when they believe in Jesus.

27 Can we boast, then, that we have done anything to be accepted by God? No, because our acquittal is not based on obeying the law. It is based on faith. 28 So we are made right with God through faith and not by obeying the law.


P.S. If you feel bitterness or unforgiveness in your heart today toward someone... let it rest under the blood of Christ and soak in His grace. Feel free to message me if you have an specific needs for prayer. Love you all!

Agent Identify Yourself

Hebrews 10:24-25
And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.

This morning I woke up with a to-do list for God. Everyone knows when God gives us a to-do list we better listen because people have gotten swallowed by whales and cast into the wilderness for not obeying God. I tend to have this meh what will people think of me mentality sometimes when I get my to-do list. God wants everyone to know that when we follow Him that's "all" that matters and He'll work it all out if you don't believe me read Romans 8:28. Not saying it's gonna be rainbows and butterflies... if you want more on persecution and standing against the crowd I have past blogs on that also. This blog is about what happened with the to-do list God gave me this morning. So I did it... I did exactly what He asked me to do and I was like okay God what now? And God spoke a word over me... one word; catalyst. Just then I felt the presence of God fill me up. It was a sort of pride but not so much a worldly pride. I felt like God just identified me! One word... and I had "no idea" what it meant. I remembered something about catalysts from chemistry class way way back in high school but I didn't think of myself as a chemical reaction so I looked it up on google. I got this;
3.
a person or thing that precipitates an event or change: His imprisonment by the government served as the catalyst that helped transform social unrest into revolution.
4
a person whose talk, enthusiasm, or energy causes others to be more friendly, enthusiastic, or energetic.

The fourth definition really woke me up because lately I've been feeling like my attitude doesn't always match my heart. My heart loves people it get's excited and wants people to get excited about good things also. However, these last couple rainy days haven't exactly left me feeling enthusiastic. I also felt well God that doesn't exactly tell me what I am going to do but it gives me an identity for now.

Have you ever watched a spy movie and half the time the spy does what he does without being briefed and just goes with the flow because that's what they were trained to do? Well God trained me... and He wants to train you. God wants to give you a secret name like "come in eagle one report your position". In the military we are given names to protect us from the enemy knowing our past or any other form of identification. God gives us a name so the enemy knows who we are in His mind. That may or may not make our mission easier but it definitely will be useful. We need to become who God calls us to be. We have a special mission here on Earth and may not always get the direct contact with the Base but we need to be well trained and ready for what comes. The only way to do this is to put on the full armor of God. That is what we can find in Ephesians 6. I've also done blogs on it in the past if you would just prefer to dive into archives. So keep strong and get training and know who you are. You are a special agent with a mission.

2 Peter 1:3
His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence,

Down to Earth

WARNING: We need to stop covering what's wrong sometime the bandaid is going to have to come off and it's going to hurt

1 Peter 3:11
Let him turn away from wickedness and shun it, and let him do right. Let him search for peace (harmony; undisturbedness from fears, agitating passions, and moral conflicts) and seek it eagerly. [Do not merely desire peaceful relations with God, with your fellowmen, and with yourself, but pursue, go after them!]

I like the Amplified version of the scripture above because it lists the positive things we ought to be replacing negative things with. One of those things was moral conflicts. It doesn't explain to run away from moral conflict but to seek it eagerly. A lot of people look at the way I view things and judge me. They feel I live with my head in the clouds and I need to come down to earth. They feel I should get to know the world more and all the current events. It's come to the point where I just do not fit in with the world anymore. You go to a professional establishment into the break room in a public school and the teachers talk about which bar or night club they are going to.

You walk down the street and hear young girls talking about what guy they are gonna be sleeping with tonight. You hang around the corner at your favorite pizza place and you overhear guys and girls joking around about using sex toys or looking at porn. The "world" has been desensitized to "sin". They feel that everything they do now is just the "norm".

They look at me like I'm some crazy person that I don't get into this stuff. They think me even being "against" it is me "imposing" my beliefs on them. They all feel that if God loves them they should be able to do whatever they want because God gives us "free choice" (YEAH I WENT THERE!).

Whatever you believe you believe... I feel bad because people are just blindfolded to the truth today. There are so many hardened hearts to experience the TRUE love that God has for them. The TRUE peace that we can live in is unrecognizable to people today.

Even the church is afraid to preach this stuff because they don't want to step on toes. They are afraid to stick up for the gospel because they feel the world needs something a little more "up to date". I even am seeing churches now hosting haunted houses???? The last time I checked Halloween was Satan's holiday so what purpose does that have in the house of God? Same thing with pastors who conduct gay marriage (Yeah I went there also). I'm just saying people don't judge me cuz I wont blind myself to the truth to fit in. I DON'T WANT TO GET DOWN TO EARTH! These clouds are fine to keep my head in because here I have a clearer perspective of Heavenly things and the things that honor God. I don't live for the world I live for Him. It is time we stop saying we are Christian if we are just going to go around doing worldly things. Christianity should be taken more seriously and not just worn as a jersey you wear to sport your favorite team. Get into action and get into the game. Most of all get into God's word and open your eyes to the truth!

Romans 12:2
Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].