Share the Blood

Romans 3:13-18
13 “Their talk is foul, like the stench from an open grave.
Their tongues are filled with lies.”
“Snake venom drips from their lips.”
14 “Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness.”
15 “They rush to commit murder.
16 Destruction and misery always follow them.
17 They don’t know where to find peace.”
18 “They have no fear of God at all.”

I was reading my bible and praying today about the situation I've dealt with this past week. I was crying out to God because I wanted to stay in this job and make an impact in my boss' life. My whole family, my friends, and Johnny's family were all praying for her especially to come to salvation. It's very hard to not feel bitterness when someone shows bitterness toward you for no reason. One thing my dad used to pray on my way to work every morning was "We have 'all' sinned and fallen short of the glory of God". I feel as Christians sometimes we are quick to think we have it all under control and there are no problems that need fixing... instead we try to fix everyone else.
Tonight as I was praying about the bitterness "in my life" and releasing it to God... He showed me this scripture in Romans chapter 3. A scripture I memorized when I was 7 years old was "For we all have fallen short of the glory of God there is no one righteous no not one". I prayed God to forgive me for the bitterness I had for my boss and for other people who have hurt me. When He showed me this scripture I thought woah this describes exactly what I was dealing with all these months and praying over every morning before work. Just then my eyes slide down the scriptures... and realized that it said... and Christ died for them. It didn't just say... Christ died it said He poured out His blood. The person I was bitter toward who wont except God and hates me because I have God in my life is bitter... but God forgave her and He died for her also on that cross. So tonight I'm releasing bitterness toward her and holding her to the cross to be drenched in His blood... crying out thank You Lord and praying for Him to forgive me for not seeing that THIS ONE He gave His blood for also.

So tonight I'm holding her up for Your blood to pour out onto her Lord that she would receive Grace... I'm trading this bitterness in for Grace heal my heart bind my wounds help me to pray for her daily. In Jesus name Amen!

continuing on in Romans 3
25 For God presented Jesus as the sacrifice for sin. People are made right with God when they believe that Jesus sacrificed his life, shedding his blood. This sacrifice shows that God was being fair when he held back and did not punish those who sinned in times past, 26 for he was looking ahead and including them in what he would do in this present time. God did this to demonstrate his righteousness, for he himself is fair and just, and he declares sinners to be right in his sight when they believe in Jesus.

27 Can we boast, then, that we have done anything to be accepted by God? No, because our acquittal is not based on obeying the law. It is based on faith. 28 So we are made right with God through faith and not by obeying the law.


P.S. If you feel bitterness or unforgiveness in your heart today toward someone... let it rest under the blood of Christ and soak in His grace. Feel free to message me if you have an specific needs for prayer. Love you all!

Agent Identify Yourself

Hebrews 10:24-25
And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.

This morning I woke up with a to-do list for God. Everyone knows when God gives us a to-do list we better listen because people have gotten swallowed by whales and cast into the wilderness for not obeying God. I tend to have this meh what will people think of me mentality sometimes when I get my to-do list. God wants everyone to know that when we follow Him that's "all" that matters and He'll work it all out if you don't believe me read Romans 8:28. Not saying it's gonna be rainbows and butterflies... if you want more on persecution and standing against the crowd I have past blogs on that also. This blog is about what happened with the to-do list God gave me this morning. So I did it... I did exactly what He asked me to do and I was like okay God what now? And God spoke a word over me... one word; catalyst. Just then I felt the presence of God fill me up. It was a sort of pride but not so much a worldly pride. I felt like God just identified me! One word... and I had "no idea" what it meant. I remembered something about catalysts from chemistry class way way back in high school but I didn't think of myself as a chemical reaction so I looked it up on google. I got this;
3.
a person or thing that precipitates an event or change: His imprisonment by the government served as the catalyst that helped transform social unrest into revolution.
4
a person whose talk, enthusiasm, or energy causes others to be more friendly, enthusiastic, or energetic.

The fourth definition really woke me up because lately I've been feeling like my attitude doesn't always match my heart. My heart loves people it get's excited and wants people to get excited about good things also. However, these last couple rainy days haven't exactly left me feeling enthusiastic. I also felt well God that doesn't exactly tell me what I am going to do but it gives me an identity for now.

Have you ever watched a spy movie and half the time the spy does what he does without being briefed and just goes with the flow because that's what they were trained to do? Well God trained me... and He wants to train you. God wants to give you a secret name like "come in eagle one report your position". In the military we are given names to protect us from the enemy knowing our past or any other form of identification. God gives us a name so the enemy knows who we are in His mind. That may or may not make our mission easier but it definitely will be useful. We need to become who God calls us to be. We have a special mission here on Earth and may not always get the direct contact with the Base but we need to be well trained and ready for what comes. The only way to do this is to put on the full armor of God. That is what we can find in Ephesians 6. I've also done blogs on it in the past if you would just prefer to dive into archives. So keep strong and get training and know who you are. You are a special agent with a mission.

2 Peter 1:3
His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence,

Down to Earth

WARNING: We need to stop covering what's wrong sometime the bandaid is going to have to come off and it's going to hurt

1 Peter 3:11
Let him turn away from wickedness and shun it, and let him do right. Let him search for peace (harmony; undisturbedness from fears, agitating passions, and moral conflicts) and seek it eagerly. [Do not merely desire peaceful relations with God, with your fellowmen, and with yourself, but pursue, go after them!]

I like the Amplified version of the scripture above because it lists the positive things we ought to be replacing negative things with. One of those things was moral conflicts. It doesn't explain to run away from moral conflict but to seek it eagerly. A lot of people look at the way I view things and judge me. They feel I live with my head in the clouds and I need to come down to earth. They feel I should get to know the world more and all the current events. It's come to the point where I just do not fit in with the world anymore. You go to a professional establishment into the break room in a public school and the teachers talk about which bar or night club they are going to.

You walk down the street and hear young girls talking about what guy they are gonna be sleeping with tonight. You hang around the corner at your favorite pizza place and you overhear guys and girls joking around about using sex toys or looking at porn. The "world" has been desensitized to "sin". They feel that everything they do now is just the "norm".

They look at me like I'm some crazy person that I don't get into this stuff. They think me even being "against" it is me "imposing" my beliefs on them. They all feel that if God loves them they should be able to do whatever they want because God gives us "free choice" (YEAH I WENT THERE!).

Whatever you believe you believe... I feel bad because people are just blindfolded to the truth today. There are so many hardened hearts to experience the TRUE love that God has for them. The TRUE peace that we can live in is unrecognizable to people today.

Even the church is afraid to preach this stuff because they don't want to step on toes. They are afraid to stick up for the gospel because they feel the world needs something a little more "up to date". I even am seeing churches now hosting haunted houses???? The last time I checked Halloween was Satan's holiday so what purpose does that have in the house of God? Same thing with pastors who conduct gay marriage (Yeah I went there also). I'm just saying people don't judge me cuz I wont blind myself to the truth to fit in. I DON'T WANT TO GET DOWN TO EARTH! These clouds are fine to keep my head in because here I have a clearer perspective of Heavenly things and the things that honor God. I don't live for the world I live for Him. It is time we stop saying we are Christian if we are just going to go around doing worldly things. Christianity should be taken more seriously and not just worn as a jersey you wear to sport your favorite team. Get into action and get into the game. Most of all get into God's word and open your eyes to the truth!

Romans 12:2
Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].

What's Gonna Work: Teamwork!

Galatians 6:2
Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.


God has been showing me lately that it is important to let others know we are there for them when they are going through storms. Not only is it important to be here for our church family and our actual family but it is also important to be there for people who would never step foot inside a church or even peer at a scripture. When I think of this scripture I think of Jesus carrying the cross to his crucifixion. When I think of the law of Christ I remember that Jesus didn't carry that burden for his disciples only nor his family only... Jesus carried that burden for EVERYONE.

I love everyone and I like to help everyone. Sometimes people don't need my help though and the only thing I can do is pray for them. However, if we all helped each other just think of how much happier this world would be. I hear of missions trips where people come back with a whole new perspective on life because over in other countries people are humble enough to accept help from others. When people in villages help each other with their burdens it brings joy. Even in the US there are families that help each other out. Yet in our own church we hardly even do that. Single unwed moms are sometimes looked down on and instead of a person asking to help by volunteering to watch the kids they usually look at the mom and judge her for not having it all together. Even the parents who don't seem to have control over their kids when they are really trying their hardest. I feel for parents in today's society it is so hard to raise your own children with everyone else trying to tell you how to do it and with all the negative influences you can not control them getting into. We need to pray for families and not judge them. We need to pray for politicians and stop acting like if we were in office we'd solve all the problems. WE can carry each others burdens by showing support and praying. If someone asks for help ... help them! If someone gets in a wreck and you are good at fixing cars why not do the labor for free (which my friend's church member did for her and she was so blessed by it). It is way better to give than receive so why not help each other out? If Christ sacrificed all He did for us can't we do something for someone also?

A Christian ought not to judge someone they ought to help them carry their burden. Just a few Sunday's ago my friend Pastor Jim from Hope Christian Church was talking about how the number one reason why people wont become Christians is because they know one. He's right though. As Christian's what do we do? We judge ... and we point fingers and yet we aren't perfect ourselves! Do we really offer to help carry people's burdens? Even if they say no we can still pray for their burdens to be eased. There are billions of burdened people out there looking for hope and a helping hand.

It warms my heart to find churches that help each other in the congregation out as well as people within the community. Unfortunately, lately I feel like Paul writing this blog because I've found only a handful of biblically founded churches in Connecticut so far that even helps people in their congregation. And even less that help people in their community... and even less than that that help people in the world. We need to start carrying the burden for one another not only at church or through church but EVERYDAY in EVERYWAY.

Keep strong, keep in the scriptures, keep reaching out. Remember we represent Christ and we should be willing to go the extra mile to do what He lived to do.

2 Corinthians 5:20
So we are the representatives of Christ, as if God was making a request to you through us: we make our request to you, in the name of Christ, be at peace with God.

A True Love Story

Psalms 146:3-4
Do not put your trust in princes, in mortals, in whom there is no help. When their breath departs, they return to the earth; on that very day their plans perish.

Ever since I was a little girl I dreamed of someday meeting my prince charming and the troubles of the world would just fade away as I got swept off to a magically land full of butterflies and rainbows. I even loved books about going off to magical places where things were different. My parents used to read us books about Narnia and my brother and I would pretend we lived there. Perhaps that's why I loved playing in the woods as a young child. Perhaps that's also why my favorite book series when I was a little girl was called Alice in Bibleland. I wanted so much to go back into biblical times with my white cat like Alice and walk beside Jesus. There was only one prince in this story series that I loved and wanted to marry someday. Jesus was real to me as a little child but somehow as the years past I felt He got put on my back burner. I felt as if I was looking for something more down to earth... something a little more physical.

That's when the boyfriends started happening. My dad wouldn't allow me to date yet but there were boys at school that I sat next to who would carry my books who I would pay particular attention to. Actually I began to pay more attention to boys than to God. I was never happy and I lost that joy I had as a young child. Until about a year or two ago when I began to come back into the full perspective.

My mom and dad love God they've always been spiritual cheerleaders in my life even when I didn't want them to be. My dad would always tell me when I was crying because my heart was broken by a guy that I should just learn to be happy enough with Jesus. It was soooo hard. I was a mess I felt like I "needed" a guy in my life to make me happy. However after being used and abused by most men I became associated with other than my dad I broke. I HAD to rely on God if I wanted to keep going and discover who I was all over again through Him. It was definitely a process and somehow I would up with a few snakes on the path. But there was always Jesus right there to pick me up and crush those snakes under His heal. Soon I felt like I was slowly coming out of a comatose. I began to realize who I was in Christ again... I began to realize I had worth and God viewed me as beautiful. Even when my parents made the mistake of bringing up my past and explaining their lack of trust in me God never did instead He showed me Jesus. That is how I came "out".

The story doesn't just end there God gifted me with a wonderful man who loves me like Jesus did. A few days ago my parents (being parents) said what would you ever do if Johnny (my fiance) ever broke up with you. I reminded them that I was used to a broken heart and that I would just pick up and carry onward to whatever God had for me elsewhere. However, God has given me a sense of security in this relationship that I've never found before and Satan would be the only one who could try to take that away and we all know Satan can't win over God.

Yet, even with Johnny in my life now ... Jesus is still my first love I still stand in awe of Him and love to dance in His presence at the feet of His throne. I love to bask in His glory and feel the hem of His garment and it's overpowering strength.

If you are where I was and every night you cry tears into your pillow waiting for the man of your dreams to step in and wondering when he will get there, take time to get to know yourself through God's eyes and realize how much He loves you.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome.